Sorry

After the accident, I was DAMN fortunate to walk away from it. A few cuts and scratches, and I'm still runnin'. Walking away with a 2nd chance was something I was so freaking lucky for. But someone I love didnt had that chance. Edward. My dad gave me a 5 hour talk as a deserved punishment for causing such a heavy lesson. I've realize that I've caused so much trouble to people around me. 3 of my sister worrying for me while I was sitting at the hospital getting healed. Nat didn't even wanna talk to me after the accident. Many of my friends called me that day and worried about me. Thank you all. I wanna thank James for staying over night at the hospital to accompany me. I really really wanna thank my baby for spending lots of money texting me throughout the night and calling me to accompany me kill the boredum in the hospital. She wanted to come visit me at the least but couldn't make it due to some house chores to do. I do not blame her. I hope she doesn't feel bad either. Its a really great treasure to have such a great girlfriend. Thank you baby. The accident didn't really leave a grieve for long. All I know is that, the day after the incident, Everyone was cool with it. Unfortunately the car have to be written off by some authorities. I've cost so many people to worry about me and Rm10000 worth of damage. My elder cousin sis was crying the shit out of her, and my Uncle was so worried for me too. I feel very guilty for putting the people I love just because of that 5 minutes incident.

I was so very fortunate to be alive to see all the people I love again and to actually talk to them. I'm very fortunate to have this 2nd chance to live once again. I had a loved one who didn't. As my father was talking about him. I couldn't stop crying. It was most loved cousin brother, Edward. He never had his 2nd chance in life. He has now departure from this unhappy world. He left back a lesson to us all that I've just broke last Saturday. I'm sorry Edward. I'm truly sorry for my actions. I've never been so careless before. I just couldn't control myself. I believe I owe my baby an apology too. She once had a dream that I died in an accident and only have 3 days to talk to her on the phone in a dream. She was crying while she told me this over the phone. I couldn't bare feeling sad and happy. She made me promised her that I wont die in an accident. But I've almost broken that promise. I'm sorry my dear. I'm sorry that I've almost broken it. I promise you that this wouldn't happen again. And I'm really thankful that your mum approach me to ask about my condition. I've never felt this much love before.

As I'm typing this post now, I couldn't stop feeling sad. So many things that had happened and I've cost so many people to shed tears. I'm so sorry all my loved ones. I truly am. I hope anybody up there can listen to me and hear my sorries, listen to my prayers to all my love ones. They are the best. I don't really deserve to be in the family. I've hurt so many of them. They forgave my actions. Thank you all. And I wanna give my sincere apology to the people that I've promise and vow to live. Edward, My family and Libby. Thank you.

I'm sorry for all the heart that I shattered, all the tears I've made all of you shed, the scars that I've left, and all the sorrows that lies between your heart.

My sincerest apology, My love.

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